I am a baker. I usually work out of the left side of my brain. I’m very methodical and list oriented. I do everything with precise weights, measures, and temperatures. Occasionally, however, the creative right side of my brain takes command. This is what happened when I found out that I was in kidney failure. I had to be creative to tackle what was in front of me.
In true “baker” fashion, I sat down and made myself a list:
1) I needed to cook with less salt.
2) I had a drinking problem.
3) I needed to exercise more.
I was using too much salt. The first thing I did was remove the saltshaker from my kitchen table. I figured if it wasn’t there, I wouldn’t be tempted to use it. I started using over-the-counter salt-free seasoning. I rediscovered fresh herbs and spices. I found that turmeric would kiss my food with an exotic flavor and a beautiful yellow tint. Fresh mint and basil would turn any dish into a cool summer evening with a bright whimsical flavor. I discovered that sage doesn’t have to be used just once a year at Thanksgiving. It tastes great in a fresh salad! I was really enjoying using the creative right side of my brain. It was like I was back in cooking school developing new recipes. However, I was really going to have to task my right brain if I was going to conquer my drinking problem.
You see, I was drinking over a gallon of water a day! I had a half gallon thermos sitting on my counter and I filled it up at least twice a day with ice water. The first thing I did was get rid of the thermos. I purchased packages of sugar-free drink mix that I could put in a 16-ounce water bottle and refrigerate. Whenever I was thirsty, I’d take a small drink from my bottle of flavored water. When it was empty, I was done for the day. I also purchased fresh fruit, such as strawberries, grapes, peaches, and pineapple. I cut the fruit into bite-size pieces and froze them on a sheet pan. When I was thirsty, I would get a small bowl of frozen fruit. Another trick I use is to have a dish of sugar-free hard candy on the table. I found that sucking on the candy would quench my thirst. The frozen fruit and sugar-free candy have an additional benefit – my grandchildren love them.
I have never really liked to exercise! I worked long hours in the bakery and when I got home, I was tired. There wasn’t much in me that wanted more physical exertion. I did know that the dietitian, nurses, and nephrologist thought exercising would help me with dialysis. That’s when I discovered I could create my own playlist from a streaming service. I put fast-paced songs that I like to listen to on my playlist, and when I cue it up I just start moving. I listen when I am out walking on the street or lifting weights in the gym or just riding my stationary bike. That playlist helps me achieve something I didn’t think was possible – looking forward to exercise!
When I first looked at that dialysis mountain, l didn’t think there was any way I could get over it. It wasn’t until I unleashed the right side of my brain and let it create new pathways for me to follow, that I was able to conquer it. By learning new ways of cooking with less salt, drinking less water, and exercising more, l am able to make my time in the dialysis chair much more pleasant and efficient.
In the fall, I will begin my tenth year of dialysis. This is something I am very proud of. Being a left-brained person, the process of dialysis was all very natural to me. But, I had to learn to rely on creative thinking to make the dialysis experience successful for me. I look forward to creatively meeting any further challenges that dialysis might bring my way.
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My name is Bill Naifeh and I was born in Tulsa, Oklahoma. I attended Oklahoma State University and graduated with a Bachelor of Science in Hotel and Restaurant Administration. I met and married the love of my life, Helen in 1976. We have two daughters and four grandchildren. In 1980, Helen and I opened a bakery/deli, Bill’s Bread Box, in Kingfisher, Oklahoma and operated it for 16 years. When we closed the bakery, I got a teaching certificate and taught Family and Consumer Science and Culinary Arts. I then switched to working in the healthcare industry as a chef and dietary manager. My journey with dialysis began in 2014.
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